My current situation
- I'm on medical leave because of anxiety
- I keep overthinking crap and thinking about my job and other stuff that makes me anxious
- I eat off-hours because I feel stressed or whatever, despite me being overweight
- Job hunting is stressing, so switching jobs isn't something I see happening soon. Good thing people keep telling me "well a lot of people want to hire programmers, there are a lot of jobs in that industry" and me being above average in it, at least for my experience level.
- I have to attend a wedding at the end of this month, I don't want to go, I hate wearing formal clothes and it's going to be hot as hell in there
- Psychological Therapy costs money (social security sucks ass) and I got paid less this month for being on leave, meaning I'll need to get money from my savings to be able to afford living
- I don't see all of this changing soon, and just want my fucking life back how it was several months ago
- I've also been a bit over a week without coding at all. I feel slightly burnt out, which is worrying at my young age.
I'm done with this shit called life.